What is autism

 What is autism.

I’m autistic , so autism is me. I can’t answer that question for anyone else but me. 

Autism affects me in so many different ways I doubt I could ever list them all.

Like most autistic people communication is one of my biggest struggles.

Meltdowns from being over stimulated have been a constant throughout my life.

Masking is a way of coping with my environment that can be so terribly exhausting.

Regulating my emotions is a constant issue.

Isolation from other minds

I understand these are terms or ideas that aren’t recognizable to those that are not familiar with autism.It’s my intent to explore all these autistic traits and more through different posts in my blog.


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