Psychosis
Ive been pondering my life lately, as I always do. Everything is such a mystery to me, well, people more than anything else. The natural world is full of enigmas as well but theres always an answer to my questions if I look hard and long enough. People on the other hand, if there is an answer to why a person is the way they are , that answer totally escapes me. Perhaps because of my mental disorder I am not capable of understanding others. In any case I can never understand a persons motives behind what they do. I think being autistic must be a kin to experiencing psychosis. I don’t have hallucinations (that I'm aware of) and I feel I'm in constant contact with my reality but because I am unable to determine a persons intentions or motives for those intentions I will assume a person that treats me in a negative manner has bad intentions towards me. This, I think, is a defense mechanism I developed at a young age as to not be blindsided by someones agression towards me. I rec...